Today I had a little setback. I found out I have an infection. That's nothing to take lightly.I had complained about a stiff neck and the dr was observing me. I had sent him a half dozen pics. A small spot on my head they pressed on, and it opened up.Then he pressed on the side of my head, and it was quite tender. The odd thing is when he pressed on the Neurotransmitter,it wasn't sore, and it had quite a bit of infection on it. They drained blood from me to use with cultures, to narrow the antibiotic down.When I come home, I'll be on a pic line to finish the course of treatment, over the next couple months.Not helping my cause!
What words do you use to describe how you feel when they've just told you the medal pieces we've worked to put in you the last few weeks have got to be removed? Devastating comes to mind. January 5th was supposed to be a happy day,the first day to the rest of my life, a new beginning,starting over. Do you see how vulnerable we are in this life? My day turned to shit in less than 30 secs with life decisions to be made with it. I thought how unfair is this. Remember that 2 to 3% I told you about. Well, lucky me. My head looks like a baseball in spring training.(you know how it's clean with bright red stiches.
As I sit in Vanderbilt for my fourth night, taking antibiotics, I want to go home! All my vitals are good. I understand why I'm here,waiting on the cultures to grow so we know which one to attack when we go home. I just want to go home and morn this,were we can move on. Notice I said "we". I haven't given enough credit to Donna. She's across the room with me sleeping on a hard fold out couch. She's been with me from the beginning,and I wouldn't have lived this long without her and the girls love,and support. My girls are the greatest, both have graduated from UT. Amanda has a degree in business with a minor in Spanish, that she acquired from study abroad program. Morgan is staying on at UT for more punishment in grad school of speech therapy.
Hopefully a better week!
So very sorry. This is where faith takes over. May faith guide your thoughts as God's hand heals you.
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